something i had to change in my life

Do you know this kinda feeling when u r going to wake up one morning and realize something's going wrong, not bad not good, an undescredible feeling and that's the moment when u have to think about what to do with ur life!
i was bored by my old life, of course it never were boring but at these point of time i were just the dumb child who was that unlucky bc of cannot pay my school in los angeles.
like stratosphere girl angela said it's time to become a heroine by myself so i tried to move on and learn how to live this life by my own.
janus were the friend who told me about hostessing in japan and i were that blindfolded and believed. fatal mistake like i had to realize after but naive like the little girl who left were she never could have imagined...
janus were already gone, back to germany but her roommate and friend lisa so she said takes care about u. i even believed in it.
without thinking a long time about i packed my bags and left.